"Everything I've Wanted"
She's everything I've always wanted to be
Every image os beauty and ecstasy
She has a great sense of humor and earth
And she sells everything she has for what it's worth.
She smiles at all the faces she sees on the streets
And she knows everything is beautiful from her head down to her feet
She is happily married to a beautiful man with fair skin
And the deepest brown eyes she can see herself in.
They live in a white house that sits high on a hill
And all of her desires have became his every will.
They have one amazingly, wonderful child
Who, in her adolescence, was quite wild
But now she has brought them all of their joy
For their new grandchild is a little boy.
She grows older with him standing by her side
But old age and wrinkles are so easy for her to hide.
They stay in love and live happily till the end
Her love, her soul mate, her eternal best friend
No matter what challenge the day may bring them to face
They do it with all the love and happiness that has kept them in place.
Sometimes she thinks of what might have been
Wondering if there are other rewards she could win
But she wouldn't trade the life she has for all the world
She's a doctor, has the perfect husband, and a gorgeous grandbaby with brown curls.
She loves the happiness from the life she's made with him
And his love has stopped the wondering of what might have been
Their love for one another is what life's supposed to be
But this is just a wish, fot she could never be me.

"Scars"
I have many scars throughout my body
But only one is visible
The scar of a cut by a knife
Placed upon my skin by a man
Who robbed me of my life.
The remainder of my scars
Are simply constant reminders
Of how bad the pain was
And of how bad the pain is
Of your question why and the only answer is because.
I was only a twelve year old child
With crooked, dropping pigtails
And a huge, pearly, white smile
Nothing on my mind but why, God, why
Singing "Lucy In the Sky Of Diamonds" all the while.
Pushed down on a cold, dirty bathroom floor
By two men and not just one
And exposed to them was all my flesh
Becoming a victim of undesired rape
Thinking that I'd rather face death.
I swear every thrust became harder
As I fought my way from under him
But I failed to keep my youth
As he threatened me again and again
Speaking of nothing but the truth.
Finally there was "peace and freedom"
As I laid there alone, naked
With every inch of my womanhood ripped apart
From a man in his mid-twenties
Who stole my innocence along with my heart.
I shall bare these scars forever
Keeping all of them inside
Because I'm ashamed to tell
But everyday I learn from these scars
For another tear just fell.